finding passion
i dont have a passion.i wish i did though.i love my field and the things i learn, the people i met.but i envy their drive, their hunger to learn, to pursue SOMETHINGi wake up in the morning just glad to be alive, able to walk to schoolthrilled to have a boyfriend i love and would give anything to spend the …
losing focus
i’m a very fickle person. all my life i find a new interest and after exploring what i want i get bored and go back to my old routine. I feel a disconnect between my longing to find and learn new things and a deep seated rooting to just sit back and be complacent. I don’t do anything anymore. Back …
how do i say
i wonder at times how to say to him how i feel. i’m a word person. i can roll them around in mouth, say them with feeling, write them daintily across a page. but when it comes to proving them, explaing them, meaning them: i’m at a loss. i dont mean i don’t mean them. i do when i say …
Lazy Sunday
I remember Sundays when I was young: waking up late, eating cereal while watching a movie, just lying around warm and unshowered (remember not showering for a while when you were younger?) but nowadays I get bored so easily. If I was back in the city (and I made the effort to get up early) I’d probably go to a …